Monday, November 18, 2013

In This Darkness

The darkness is consuming.
It's flooded over what I thought I knew
And I no longer have the shelter I once had.
I'm open and I'm scared.

Vulnerability, I thought was always a strong point for me.
That's not true.
I'm going mad;
I'm just so sad.

I can't see anything anymore,
But I can feel everything.
It's destroying me.
It's emptying me.

I want to stand up stronger.
But, I do not know if I can.
I want to see something.
But, I'm not sure I would be able to see correctly.

Something is calling.
I can hear it.
It sounds familiar.
I'm afraid to follow.

It continues to call.
I can hear it saying my name.
I must take a step forward.
Everything is so dark.

That is what scares me.
I can no longer tell what will happen next
And I wish I could.
I have to move, though,

Or the darkness will only consume me more.
I'm not sure what to do.
I have to make a choice.
The one that frightens me more seems to be the only logical choice, though.

So I will walk forward.
I will risk walking,
In this darkness,
Hoping that it will lead to the light.

Hopefully the light will shine in a beautiful hue.
And hopefully, that light will lead me back to you.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry,
But I'm not worth it.
I am a predisposed failure.
I can't help you become secure.

I'm sorry,
But I'm afraid that I'm not good enough,
And I don't think you understand that.
I'm not what you're looking for.

I'm sorry,
But I can't truly give you what you're looking for.
I'm just a substitute.
I want you to keep en route.

I'm sorry,
But you deserve better.
I'm just a lie; I'm not confident
I'm scared and not worth it.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Politics in a Box

I've stood in protest for as long as I can remember.
Not once have I sat to catch my breath.
I'm starting to ask myself,
How much of this will mean something.

When people look back,
Will they remember
These choices I've fought for,
Or is it just another missing history?

Does this protest punctuate my purpose?
Can my protest be seen on through time?
I want what I've done to matter.
I want to leave knowing there was real change.

Not just the classic position-taking.
Not just logrolling my way through life.
I won't let my choices be arbitrarily diminished.
I know what I'm fighting for matters.

It's not just politics in a box.